On this day, a year ago, I was a different person. With different views on everything. I didn't know a lot of things. I was still naive. I was living an odd number age. ;p I had a boyfriend. I wasn't so freaked about about my exams. Basically, I lived life differently than I do now.

Right now, I can say that I go to church regularly. I try not to mix around with people who are a complete bad influence into my life. I've learnt to be quieter. I have been single for almost 7 months. I'm in a freaking MUSICAL ;D! I play the violin more often than I have ever played in my life. I plan to take my grade 8. I'll be turning 17 soon. (:

I have a wonderful God. <3

I hardly want this year to end. This has been like, the best year ever. EVER I TELL YOU. <3

I can officially say that at the age of sixteen, I've crossed off 4 or 5 things on my list of things to do before I die. And thats pretty good. Seeing as I don't make easy goals. (:

November seems to have passed by quite fast. There's like 10 days left of it. Then its the countdown to 2010. I can't believe it. But at the same time, I want my exams to come and go like that too. GOD PLEASE LET THAT HAPPEN.

SEASON OF THE YEAR rehearsals are fun now. We're practicing on the actual stage and all. The mamak sessions after are just amazing and completely priceless. I'm going to miss you guys so much it will hurt.

GOD BLESS US ALL.

I have nothing else to say. Jacob Black is so hot. Rob Pattinson shouldn't have ever been picked to play Edward Cullen. <3

I suddenly love playing my violin again. I have finally gotten myself to believe that it is a God given talent and that many people can't play it so I should be thankful and continue playing it. I need to find a way to make myself believe in grade exams still. HELP ME?

I like how my life style is changing more. For the better actually. I don't lose my temper as much as I used to. I do eat a lot more now though. Apparently thats a good thing. I DON'T CARE what you guys think though. As long as I think i'm skinny, i'm skinny. Other than that, your trying to tell me I am doesn't help. Okay... maybe a little.

I like The Big Bang Theory. The series. ALSO, GLEE is the best! oh my god, Finn, your voice is awesome. Music is love <3

What am I rambling about!?

Oh did I tell you my All American Reject experience?

HAH, here goes.

So.. I get to Bukit Jalil at 5.20pm right. I get inside in like 10 minutes while almost everyone got there at 4pm and waited two hours to get through the gate. And then I couldn't find Kate and Inessa so I was alone til Jack and Mel got in. Then I just hung out with their group through out.

I knew I had rehearsals that night so I prayed All American Rejects came out FREAKING EARLY so people like me could watch and then go off after and still make it in time for rehearsals but NO, they have to come out at 10pm and I had to leave at 8.30pm. AFTER watching all the nonsense local bands which are well, SOMEWHAT descent. but still pretty much crap.

So whatever, I got to rehearsals with this extremely pissed off look cause I had to leave the concert. And like, Its not like they come down all the time right? I totally missed them.

Thats pretty much it. I felt guilty after being so mad. I started crying...

"Do you know what the difference between boys and girls?

- boys only wear pants. but girls wear skirts AND pants. (: "

I'm really really going to miss my musical family. Its only 6 weeks left. Its crazy! We practice crazy hard thinking its something thats super far away and all. But really, its just 6 weeks. And all for what? an hour? Then after that, we'll go back to our normal lives. And mine's going to be just... study. study. study. dance class. study. study. study. youth service. study. study. study. violin class?

Yeah, shocking. Bet everyone's thinking the world has turned upside down. But yes, I'm thinking of taking up violin classes again. Because God gave me a gift. And with my hard work put it, It became a talent. And I shouldn't give it up. I want to get my Grade 8 violin. But I really really hate exams. Like more than God hates the devil. I'm not even sure if God hates the devil though. hmmm.

ANYWAYS, wish me luck for my O levels at least? I'm aiming for straight A's baby. And I WILL get them. If I work really hard.. keep a positive mindset.

Oh dear... help.