Today is the last day of the year.

I don't know whether to feel excited or to feel extremely sad its over. People say never look back at the past but concentrate on the future. I'm stuck in the middle because my 2009 has been the best year of my entire life. A lot of my dreams came true this year..

I got to mark out a lot on my wish list this year. Funny thing was, it all happened this year. The Goods. The BADS. The bads i'm not going to say. The goods... well, I crossed out being in a musical, going to australia, kissing under the rain. The one thing i haven't accomplished is writing a song before the end of the year. Mom would give me a hundred ringgit if I did though. I didn't have the time or the inspiration.

What I did have was the inspiration to pick up my violin again and start playing it for hours... Its not really something I thought I'd ever see myself doing at all. Not in a long long time anyways. Oh, I also called a violin teacher today. She teaches at this music school in Aman Suria. I'm really excited!

I'm also going to get straight A's for my IGCSE's and pass my driving exam the first time. I'm going to try and do my grade 8 violin exam but that's going to happen mostly after my O levels. I'm going to get into the International College of Hotel Management - YTL in the year of 2011 and do a two +1 year degree course of which I'll have to fly to Adelaide or Melbourne to study. I'll graduate university at the age of 21. Thats my goal. I was disappointed in myself in not finishing highschool this year but thats okayy...

The other thing would be, I wish I could kiss that guy at midnight later. Heh, fat chance he's even thinking of me right now..

OH, AND I CUT MY HAIR JUST NOW TOO. What a way to end the year, Samantha. You finally cut your hair.. It wasn't easy though. I was so worried about how Aunty Sally would cut it. I was freaking out. Its very much straighter now. No more curls and not so much layers.. I look younger. EW.

Anyways, this is me, signing off 2009 and writing a new contract for 2010.

I LOVE YOU ALL & GOODNIGHT. <3

The Season Of The Year saved 467 souls. I'm very proud of all of you SOTIANS. We did this and we did this together. And God was behind us all the way..

THE SHOW IS FREAKING TOMORROW !!! <3

It doesn't feel like Christmas is near. I feel like i've lost the feelings for christmas.

WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME!?!?!

HO HO HO. It`s Dezember!

How exciting! I don't feel like its near Christmas. I really don't. I, as usual, haven't done very much Christmas shopping. Or card making. Or, made any other plans than performing for SIB KL. =]

I think that's a really good Christmas present if you asked me.

Christmas @ the park is soon! homygod. Its soon! shit, are we ready for a promo show?

goddamnit i hope so.

Dear 2010, I don't care what energy vibes the earth gives and takes but I want those straight A's.

I want to be able to say I don't ever have to study my text books ever again like the rest of my seventeen year old friends.

love,

yours truly.

On this day, a year ago, I was a different person. With different views on everything. I didn't know a lot of things. I was still naive. I was living an odd number age. ;p I had a boyfriend. I wasn't so freaked about about my exams. Basically, I lived life differently than I do now.

Right now, I can say that I go to church regularly. I try not to mix around with people who are a complete bad influence into my life. I've learnt to be quieter. I have been single for almost 7 months. I'm in a freaking MUSICAL ;D! I play the violin more often than I have ever played in my life. I plan to take my grade 8. I'll be turning 17 soon. (:

I have a wonderful God. <3

I hardly want this year to end. This has been like, the best year ever. EVER I TELL YOU. <3

I can officially say that at the age of sixteen, I've crossed off 4 or 5 things on my list of things to do before I die. And thats pretty good. Seeing as I don't make easy goals. (:

November seems to have passed by quite fast. There's like 10 days left of it. Then its the countdown to 2010. I can't believe it. But at the same time, I want my exams to come and go like that too. GOD PLEASE LET THAT HAPPEN.

SEASON OF THE YEAR rehearsals are fun now. We're practicing on the actual stage and all. The mamak sessions after are just amazing and completely priceless. I'm going to miss you guys so much it will hurt.

GOD BLESS US ALL.

I have nothing else to say. Jacob Black is so hot. Rob Pattinson shouldn't have ever been picked to play Edward Cullen. <3

I suddenly love playing my violin again. I have finally gotten myself to believe that it is a God given talent and that many people can't play it so I should be thankful and continue playing it. I need to find a way to make myself believe in grade exams still. HELP ME?

I like how my life style is changing more. For the better actually. I don't lose my temper as much as I used to. I do eat a lot more now though. Apparently thats a good thing. I DON'T CARE what you guys think though. As long as I think i'm skinny, i'm skinny. Other than that, your trying to tell me I am doesn't help. Okay... maybe a little.

I like The Big Bang Theory. The series. ALSO, GLEE is the best! oh my god, Finn, your voice is awesome. Music is love <3

What am I rambling about!?

Oh did I tell you my All American Reject experience?

HAH, here goes.

So.. I get to Bukit Jalil at 5.20pm right. I get inside in like 10 minutes while almost everyone got there at 4pm and waited two hours to get through the gate. And then I couldn't find Kate and Inessa so I was alone til Jack and Mel got in. Then I just hung out with their group through out.

I knew I had rehearsals that night so I prayed All American Rejects came out FREAKING EARLY so people like me could watch and then go off after and still make it in time for rehearsals but NO, they have to come out at 10pm and I had to leave at 8.30pm. AFTER watching all the nonsense local bands which are well, SOMEWHAT descent. but still pretty much crap.

So whatever, I got to rehearsals with this extremely pissed off look cause I had to leave the concert. And like, Its not like they come down all the time right? I totally missed them.

Thats pretty much it. I felt guilty after being so mad. I started crying...